the people who grinned themselves to death

4 months until high school is over.

2007-12-30T05:14:54Z

And oh, precautions, yes precautions
But if you're playing with a gun, you could kill someone
And in the dark it's hard to know a friend
But I'm not angry, I won't be forever angry
As I'm walking toward tomorrow with a rifle in my hand
And I'm thinking about New England, and I'm missing Old Japan
And a mountain in California where a spring runs hot and cold
And if I told you I felt ageless, would you tell me I'm not old?
As I go on
Wondering if I've got a soul and
Counting down the hours 'till it goes

hole_in_my_sky @ 2007-10-14T22:05:00

2007-10-15T02:28:31Z

Living is easy with eyes closed
Misunderstanding all you see.
It's getting hard to be someone.
But it all works out,
It doesn't matter much to me.
Let me take you down,
'Cos I'm going to Strawberry Fields.
Nothing is real
And nothing to get hungabout.
Strawberry Fields forever.

hole_in_my_sky @ 2007-06-24T23:44:00

2007-06-25T03:50:13Z

What Happened To You?
Before you started tokin'
You used to have a brain
But now you don't get even the simplest of things
I can draw a little picture
Or even use my hands
I try to explain but you just don't understand
Man you're really losin' it
And you've really done a lot of junk now
But you keep abusin' it
What in the world happened to you?
It's bad enough you do it to yourself
But taking someone with you well you know that's something else
I say I'm not that kind of person
I'm not that kind of man
I try to explain but you just don't understand
I might be sympathetic or cut a little slack
If I thought that you were willing to give a little back
But you do it in the morning
You do it in the night
You lie to refrain from just facing your life
So I'll see you man tomorrow
You'll be gackin' up again
I'll see you in a coffin by the time your wad is spent
I think of all the times that I tried to lend a hand
I try to explain but you just don't understand

hole_in_my_sky @ 2006-11-18T04:49:00

2006-11-18T04:49:09Z

Happy Feet was so cute! And David got me one of the amazing apple pies for thanksgiving... my family is gonna be pretty damn happy. those pies are so fucking good. I'm so glad thanksgiving's almost here.. and before you know it winter break. yeeeah. this semester's going by fast. I had a good night.. I really wanna make the cleansing tomorrow, but I don't know if I can. Leftover Crack is also tomorrow and the meteor shower!!! anyhoo, see ya cats later.

hole_in_my_sky @ 2006-11-11T05:28:00

2006-11-11T05:28:24Z

Tyger! Tyger! burning bright
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye
Could frame thy fearful symmetry?

In what distant deeps or skies
Burnt the fire of thine eyes?
On what wings dare he aspire?
What the hand dare sieze the fire?

And what shoulder, & what art.
Could twist the sinews of thy heart?
And when thy heart began to beat,
What dread hand? & what dread feet?

What the hammer? what the chain?
In what furnace was thy brain?
What the anvil? what dread grasp
Dare its deadly terrors clasp?

When the stars threw down their spears,
And watered heaven with their tears,
Did he smile his work to see?
Did he who made the Lamb make thee?

Tyger! Tyger! burning bright
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye
Dare frame thy fearful symmetry?

hole_in_my_sky @ 2006-10-31T02:08:00

2006-10-31T02:17:21Z

i love good memories :)

hole_in_my_sky @ 2006-09-14T22:05:00

2006-09-15T02:08:07Z

Yesterday, a child came out to wander
Caught a dragonfly inside a jar
Fearful when the sky was full of thunder
And tearful at the falling of a star

And the seasons they go 'round and 'round
And the painted ponies go up and down
We're captive on the carousel of time
We can't return we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game

Then, the child moved ten times 'round the seasons
Skated over ten clear frozen streams
Words like, "When you're older", must appease him
And promises of someday make his dreams

And the seasons they go 'round and 'round
And the painted ponies go up and down
We're captive on the carousel of time
We can't return we can only look behind
From where we came,
and go round and round and round
In the circle game

Sixteen springs and sixteen summers gone now
Cartwheels turn to car wheels through the town
And they tell him, "Take your time. It won't be long now.
'Til your drag your feet to slow the circles down"

And the seasons they go 'round and 'round
And the painted ponies go up and down
We're captive on the carousel of time
We can't return we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and round and round
In the circle game

So the years spin by and now the boy is twenty
Though his dreams have lost some grandeur coming true
There'll be new dreams, maybe better dreams and plenty
Before the last revolving year is through.

And the seasons they go 'round and 'round
And the painted ponies go up and down
We're captive on the carousel of time
We can't return, we can only look behind
From where we came
And go round and 'round and 'round
In the circle game
And go 'round and 'round and 'round in the circle game.

Do you know what i think about you

2006-09-14T22:09:45Z

there's some things i just don't know about anymore...

hole_in_my_sky @ 2006-09-11T22:52:00

2006-09-12T02:55:26Z

just need to let it goooooooooo.... foreverrrrr...
I can't believe it's already September.

hole_in_my_sky @ 2006-08-31T18:20:00

2006-08-31T22:37:03Z

Well, I woke up in the morning
There's frogs inside my socks
Your mama, she's a-hidin'
Inside the icebox
Your daddy walks in wearin'
A Napoleon Bonaparte mask
Then you ask why I don't live here
Honey, do you have to ask?

Well, I go to pet your monkey
I get a face full of claws
I ask who's in the fireplace
And you tell me Santa Claus
The milkman comes in
He's wearing a derby hat
Then you ask why I don't live here
Honey, how come you have to ask me that?

Well, I asked for something to eat
I'm hungry as a hog
So I get brown rice, seaweed
And a dirty hot dog
I've got a hole
Where my stomach disappeared
Then you ask why I don't live here
Honey, I gotta think you're really weird.

Your grandpa's cane
It turns into a sword
Your grandma prays to pictures
That are pasted on a board
Everything inside my pockets
Your uncle steals
Then you ask why I don't live here
Honey, I can't believe that you're for real.

Well, there's fist fights in the kitchen
They're enough to make me cry
The mailman comes in
Even he's gotta take a side
Even the butler
He's got something to prove
Then you ask why I don't live here
Honey, how come you don't move?

hole_in_my_sky @ 2006-07-31T16:56:00

2006-07-31T20:57:05Z

i never fucking write anymore. it's baddddddd. i've become too lazy for words.

:-$

ho hum

2006-07-31T15:26:08Z

hmm... so i'm here "helping" my mom at work at woodward north. they firewall everything of course so livejournal is the only thing to do. yaaay. anyhoo.. birthday was saturday and i had a good one. went out to dinner with the family and john and david and his dad and little bro came along too. it was really nice i'm glad it could work out. so yeah tomorrow is the first day of august and that sucks. august is the worst month ever. summer is slowly coming to an end but that's okay. i've had a good one. i got a pretty cool cd... it's called 10 second aggression unplugged. don't know if you've heard of 'em ;-) a special birthday cd just for me. thanks guys.. minus emma and john. i was laughin pretty hard at the beginning of the cd, then almost choking up at the end. it was great. anyhowwwww... i guess i'm gonna go be useful. seee ya.

callin maxwell murder for you...

2006-07-26T14:22:11Z

hey. so yeah, rancid was last night and it was a great show. every song they played was amazing.. i had a great time. i cried when that dude proposed to that girl on stage.. awesome. but damnit i wish john coulda been there.. and i know he does too. i miss that kid. anyhoo, summer has been pretty good... and my birthday is saturday... yeah, i'm finally 16 guys. i'm growin up what can i say. oh yeah, by the way... happy birthday ally! anyhoooo... have a good day guys. peace outttt.
p.s. sinead o'connor.. is really weird.

love,
maxwell murder =)

hole_in_my_sky @ 2006-07-19T14:52:00

2006-07-19T19:14:28Z

They assured me I was guilty but I commited no crime
They said confessions bring lenience so they put me on the line
So I protest the massacres at the Tiananmen Square
My friends said yo, stay away man, you better not go fucking back there

They wouldn't let me write about my opinions about the state
And freedom of expression they would never tolerate
And the military secrets that I never did steal
I didn't start no violence, and there was nobody that I killed

So I have a clear account of all the abuses of power
And the memories of my homeland have now gone sour
And I only got one weapon, its so plain for me to see
My only weapon I call.. poetry

And I don't even know why
The truth seems like a lie
In my cell there is no sky
When I was arrested in Shanghai

Into wealth and priveledge, huh, I was not born
But a devotion to freedom and liberty, I was sworn
So every emotion is studdied, watched and controlled
Who gets paid, who gets disciplined, who gets rolled

A transmitter beams my coordinates anywhere on earth
And radio waves, surveilance, satellite burst
Open up your skull and let some knowledge come in
Crack open the cranium and let awareness begin.....

RANCID IS COMING... SOON! :) :) :) :) :) :)

good to be home

2006-06-26T13:34:24Z

I got back from England/Scotland Saturday. It's nice to be home. I missed everyone. It was especially awesome to see Rikko, David, and John at the airport.. pretty cool surprise, you guys are awesome. Went to see 10 Second Aggression yesterday and they were great. It was really fun seein 'em play. They did a great job. It was just nice to be back with everyone hangin out so yeah I'm glad I made it and I hope everyone's summer is going well. Warped is comin around fast... Wednesday wow that came outta no where, but I'm excited.. good bands are playing even amongst the hardcore pussy ones so it will be fun. Well, Have a good day.

hole_in_my_sky @ 2006-06-14T23:45:00

2006-06-15T03:45:48Z

If I fall back down, you're gonna help me back up again
If I fall back down, you're gonna be my friend

tonight protect us from the storm

2006-06-11T05:19:47Z

Yaaaoooo. Yes, so I get to go to driver's ed. next weeka and then Saturday I go to Europe for a week. I'm kind of anxious anticipating it. I know it will be cool.. but none of the kids I'm going with are like me... I mean yeah, they're fine I guess. It's just weird spending a week with people you aren't even that close to, and they are all pretty close with each other. That's what I get. haha... anyhoo. That'll come and go.. and then June will be almost over.. Warped, and such things as that. Can't say I've been all that busy up until now.. just been lounging not doing any summer reading. I should get a job. Keep saying that.. and nothing happens. It smells sorta funky. Eh, nothin really else to say in a public journal but the basics such as those and I hadn't updated in a while. So, hope summer's goin swell.

MORE MORE MORE MORE!

2006-05-07T23:34:27Z

Watching Mission Hill with Monika was basically some of the best fun I've had in a while. It was a good time. I love how we just sit in the car for like half an hour... doing nothing. Anyway, it was good. And I can't believe it's Sunday night again- stupid. I guess I'm gonna showerrr. bye.

To the extent that I wear skirts
and cheap nylon slips
I've gone native
I wanted to know the exact dimension of hell
does this sound simple?
Fuck you! Are you for sale?
Does 'Fuck you' sound simple enough?
This was the only part that turned me on
but he was candy all over

come on down to the store
you can buy some more, and more, and more, and more
you can buy some more, and more, and more, and more
you can buy some more, and more, and more, and more
you can buy some more, and more, and more, and more

I grew up in a shotgun row
sliding down the hill
out front were the big machines
steel and rusty now I guess
outback was the river
and that big sign down the road
that's where it all started

come on down to the store
you can buy some more, and more, and more, and more
come on down to the store
you can buy some more, and more, and more, and more
come on down to the store
you can buy some more, and more, and more, and more
you can buy some more, more, more, more

jeannie isn't ovulating...

2006-05-01T22:13:19Z

LESS THAN THREE WEEKS UNTIL SCHOOL IS OUT!

Okay so I thought that I would let you know that. Well, it's mainly for Monika... but I am sure everyone else cares too. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh! I am so sick of it... want summer.... Anyway, as of late haha.. that is a funny phrase, "as of late," anyway.. I have been chilling out not really into mucho. I realized that MUSIC is fucking amazing... well I realized that a long time ago.. but I just had one of those realizations that it is.... well, great. That makes me happy... Going to shows has to be the most amazing thing to do with your time. Dancing and singing and getting down with your homie g's.. know what I am saying? Yeah. I need a show again.. It seems almost every other weekend they have been arrising and that is very good. It really takes off some stress. I'm hopin' I can go to The Business/ Roger Miret and the Disasters/ Brain Failure. Patrick informed me that Brain Failure is a Chinese punk sensation! So that would be awesome... see some hot Asians. Now I am just going on and on. WE FOUND OUT WHEN MRS SANDIFER'S BDAY IS! This is awesome.... totally ordering her a stripper, right? Okay. Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

ohhhh modest mouse

2006-04-18T01:29:48Z

Well, do you need a lot of what you've got to survive?
Here's the man with teeth like God's shoeshine
He sparkles shimmers shines
let's all have another Orange Julius
This syrup standing in lines
The malls are the soon to be ghost towns
so long, farewell, good-bye
Take 'em all for the long ride
and you'll go around town
no one wants to be uptight anymore
You can be ashamed
or be so proud of what you've done
but not no one, not now, not ever or anyone
take 'em all for the sense of happiness
that comes from hurting deep down inside
Or you can walk th line and give a shit
I'm on the corner of this and this and this and this
and its all all wrong, and its all all gone
Well, you can add it up and give a shit
go to the family doctor
Its all worth it
and its all all gone, and its all all wrong
Here's the man with teeth like God's shoeshine
He sparkles shimmers shines
let's all have another Orange Julius
Thick syrup standing in lines
The malls are the soon to be ghost towns
so long, farewell, good-bye
And the telephone goes off
pick to receiver up, try to meet ends
and find out the beginning, the end and the best of it

"i had a dream last night but i forgot what it was"

2006-04-17T02:50:43Z

I am updating. I guess this break was less than what I expected it to be, but it was still time off from school so whatever, that's fine. The last few days have basically been me acting as a major potato. Thursday, however, was nice.. seeing all them folks in 10 second aggression playin. They were good and I enjoyed it very much. I felt bad 'cause my mom didn't have too great a weekend but she's getting better... so we vegged today after getting home from the grandparents and instead of me working on the essay... we watched True Hollywood Story... two actually.. Olivia Newton-John and Oprah. Pretty great, yeah? Anyhoo I can't believe it is only 5 more weeks of school. Hopefully it will pass by prety quick. I'm realllly damn tired of it, much like everyone else I know. I'm hoping going to Catch 22 will work out this weekend. yeeeeeah.

only a few more months

2006-03-15T01:51:53Z

I'm heading down
A lonely highway
I'm running down
A one-way street
Well, I wanna know
Are you going my way?
Is there some place quiet
Where we can meet
And friends they come
And friends they go
But you were always by my side
And where it all ends
Well, I don't know
Don't cry no more, just hold on tight

There was a time
When I was desperate
Living in a town
Without a name
And when things got
So dark and desolate
You taught me how
To hide my shame

And kings and queens
And millionaires
May never know
What I have known
And thank the stars
I'm the lucky one
Thanks for the lessons
That I have been shown

I feel rich
I feel power
And security
And when I'm weak
You are strong
Once in a lifetime, twice
In eternity and guess what?
Nothing else
Matters anyway

I feel rich
I feel power
And security
And when I'm weak
You are strong
Once in a lifetime, twice
In eternity and guess what?
Nothing else
Matters anyway

hole_in_my_sky @ 2006-03-01T20:29:00

2006-03-02T01:35:22Z

sorry if i've been a bad friend

remember the time

2006-02-16T23:28:14Z

Hello. Whenever I update livejournal anymore, it is only because I'm in some sort of nostalgic mood. School has gone by pretty damn fast this year. I mean only two more weeks until spring break already. The last two days have been really nice, but I hear the cold is coming back this weekend. So, Monika and I were talking about such 'n such and eighth grade and AND WE'LL NEVER HAVE TO LISTEN things in the past. It is pretty weird to think all that stuff ever happened. Sometimes I feel like it never even did... or wonder how much bigger or less of a deal it really was looking back at it in hind sight (definately not 20/20). After all this talk about old things and dilemas, it was pretty ironic to be in something as simple as an AIM chat room last night with TO ANYONE ABOUT ANYTHING my friends. It is really a comfort to look back and think how small little things like making up people's nicknames and quoting song lyrics back and forth made us feel so bonded.
Do you ever go read through your old yearbooks and get that funny feeling inside? It's not good or bad; it's just there. Start running in your head how you became friends with who 'CAUSE ITS ALL BEEN DONE AND ITS ALL BEEN SAID you are friends with and how you met and how things happened that you never even expected to between your little "group." For the last three years of my life I have met the people that never seem to let me down no matter what the situation. And when we are annoyed with each other, we always seem to work through it. There are some things certain people have said to me that I will probably never ever forget even when I am long done with highschool. I have admitted to being scared of losing touch with people but those years are a little ways off, even though WE'RE THE COOLEST KIDS AND WE TAKE WHAT WE CAN GET it will get here pretty unexpectedly. It would be pretty ideal to never have to say bye to the most important people in your life. These people are the people I have been with as my personality grew into what it was. They have seen the good and bad sides of me and vise versa. I can't imagine not knowing them. It probably won't be long before you hear another one of these speeches from me... sayyyy May? Anyways, this is what I do when I have no homework. Happy Thursday.

damn rhyme scheme

2005-12-27T20:19:37Z

I am mad at myself. I haven't written anything.. in a long ass time. And that is ridiculous... It used to feel so good to just... write even if it was shit. Maybe I'll stop bitching and go pick up a pen.

something really old

A lifeless body lies on the floor
Where it dropped to its eternal slumber several days before
Was it the axe or was it the pill
Did it kill her slow and softly, or did it give her a thrill
Did the blood just seep until a puddle lay around her
Or was she laid to rest without one drip’s exposure
The mystery will never unfold
Had she had enough of growing old
Was it jealousy of another one
Though it appears she was only loved my some
Cold and frigid she stares at the wall
Glassy reflections through her wide eye ball
The body neglected for days and days
Soon her life will be left in a haze
No memories or stories of the person that she was
All there is to know was that she died just because